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[18 Jun 2005|12:01am] |
ok so i have pictures, and jayme, breann, and lindsay needed to see them.
so breann said to revive my lj
JUST THIS TIME
have fun kids
( our adventurous evening )
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[13 Feb 2005|10:46pm] |
oh..
livejournal,
goodbye
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[09 Feb 2005|12:05am] |
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Tokyo Rose - I Love You Too |
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i'm running out of things to post.
and getting bored of things to read.
livejournal is dull
not to mention pointless
[not like i just realized this]
it's a place we've never been,
it's a waste to keep it in
it means little to you but the world to me
--ian-->
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[07 Feb 2005|09:59pm] |
ok so i really like this
staring at the world through the hole you put in My
hand. that was caused by a blade you gently inserted.
I did this for you, not for your religon, not for your
patterns. I did this for you. I did this for a man
like you. stop searching and find Me. I am stabbed by grace
and slinging blood.
spiritualized hardcore=magnificent
[i've discovered]
ordered the race the sun and alexisonfire cds a few days ago
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[06 Feb 2005|11:44pm] |
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Blindside - Midnight |
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no sadness, no drama, no complications, no anger, no misunderstandings... just exhilaration
and hopefully my future
it seems there is nothing to remind me of peace down here
so how come all i feel is joy
--ian-->
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[06 Feb 2005|12:33am] |
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Gavin DeGraw - Meaning |
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you're falling
well so am i
let's catch each other
impossible?
push the lines we ask for leniency
bend until proven we'll never know
they hold the brush dripping with pigment
painting morals in a deep shade of grey
they receive nothing but despisal
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ok so i just let my pen go tonight. don't question a thoughtful mind
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[04 Feb 2005|11:24pm] |
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Brand New - Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't |
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ms. jayme palmer made my day. nobody ever says anything like that.
thanks dear.
oh, and does an a+ affect your gpa more than an a or a-? i hope so--but doubt it.
i am all you've ever wanted,
what all the other boys all promised.
sorry i told. i just needed you to know.
i am the cause to all your problems,
shelter from cold. we are never alone.
coordinate brain and mouth.
then ask me whats it like
to have myself so figured out.
i wish i knew..
[edit: i didn't write that. it's a song. i wish i did though]
do you like my ability to bend?
except i dont..
--ian-->
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[03 Feb 2005|10:56pm] |
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norma jean- memphis will be laid to waste |
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Everything was wrong so we sang sentimental songs. "Oh how seldom we belong but how elegant our kiss." We painted crooked lines but danced in perfect time to a love so much refined, we know not what it is until like a dullen wine we pour into a grief know before but never quite like this. All i know now is regret, it follows like a silhouette along the cobbelstone behind me, but has nothing to say except to innocently ask, its voice delicate as glass, "Do you see me when we pass?" but i continue on my way.
created something out of nothing... only to destroy it
and i'm sorry, to you. you'll never be the same
--ian-->
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[02 Feb 2005|10:07pm] |
ok so i guess... me and a few other people are gonna be "famous". fourth period ms. nobiltt and the photographers came into our class and pulled some people out. we circled around on the quad, held hands, and prayed while the photographers took pictures. i guess it's gonna be on LAB's national brochure thing. eh, pretty cool
then church tonight. ok i would not actually volunteer myself to do that. two days ago danny came to me and basically pleaded because someone bailed at the last minute. so yeah. oh yeah and she was in eighth grade. poor girl; she was shaking like crazy.
( as cold as silence )
because when i think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
i feel loved, honestly
--ian-->
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[01 Feb 2005|10:24pm] |
i think my emotions are dulled. to a point where i struggle to feel strongly in a certain way. it sucks because i feel like i can't give certain people, or anyone everything i have because... that comes to a different point that i'm leaving alone.
i'm individualistic... i've always been that way and it's not something i'd necessarily change about myself. i'm slightly introverted, quiet, and passive; it's because of how i was raised.. probably being homeschooled for 9 years. i don't show joy or sadness..
there's this part of me that extremely few people have seen. it laughs, loves, and cries. i can't show it, i don't know why,
and i hate it
everything i know has let me down
so i will just let go
let you turn me inside out
because i know i'm not sure about anything
but you wouldn't have it any other way
--ian-->
happiness is given in the form of a girl
...hand in hand with the stars...
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[30 Jan 2005|11:55pm] |
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alexisonfire- accidents |
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last night i dreamt that i died. how or why i don't know, but what was weird is that i didn't care.
i watched what i had lived go on without me; but without other people around. i saw everything i put so much of my life into, just sitting there uncaring about the lack of my presence.
i had this stupid, but amazingly real, feeling of pointlessness. all that i loved didn't matter then, and it won't when i actually die.
i do love all of you though
do they even cure you?
or is it just to humor us before we die
if only we could heal ourselves
we wouldn't need to be hooked up to these machines
let us redefine what it means to heal
--ian-->
it was a dream. i'm not actually morbid.
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[29 Jan 2005|10:52pm] |
[sometimes... we don't do the things that we want--
my life. your control. my discontent
...my complaints...
--so that others won't know we want to do them.]
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[29 Jan 2005|12:32am] |
i'm constantly reminded of why surfers don't go to the gym.
i've got my board.
waves.
and a workout.
storm surf today. only lasted an hour.
pictures later.
but i did make something
( these days will fade )
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[27 Jan 2005|10:23pm] |
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Explosions in the Sky - Your Hand in Mine |
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ok so i got two cds today. and both are amazing.
moonlight survived by moments in grace
and
the friday night lights soundtrack
awesome
going out in the water after our last final tomorrow. jake's coming too. ha his first time in over a year.
spanish and history tomorrow. eh
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[26 Jan 2005|09:38pm] |
so i finished my religion final in 27 minutes.. my dear sam lui finished 2 minutes after that. we played hang man for half an hour. she gave me "griffith park". to get her back i did "not creative"..
then i just started writing..
and i thought the trees breathed lies
tempt the heart with shuffled cries
and i thought the wind blew faith
passed through hopes that we create
i guess i could keep it going. we'll see
uhh...
oh youth group
oh that wonderful cross
bids me come and die
to find that i might truly live
--ian-->
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[25 Jan 2005|06:35pm] |
english review--might be useful-- so click it
and i have to get the literary terms from somebody. i forgot to write all of them down.
so if you have them, please do me a favor and somehow get them to me.
please
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[24 Jan 2005|10:11pm] |
chris. every single day he sits in some painfully awkward way, worthy of a picture. yeah, he "sat" there like that for 30 minutes.
if only i was 17 and she was 16, then i would be driving her.
( experimenting with paint shop pro )
the hands will fall away, the pain appeal
the trees will say its okay
cause i'm scared that theres no answer
cause i'm scared theres no dreamers
in this life of mine there is only time
the illusion of which is gone
--ian-->
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[24 Jan 2005|12:08am] |
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stratus- moments in grace |
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[23 Jan 2005|08:36pm] |
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Brand New - Soco Amaretto Lime |
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..the stupid bandwagon drove right by me
Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want. Then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.
and we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause it's all been done and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
--ian-->
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[22 Jan 2005|10:03pm] |
she said "no, you've got wits, you've got looks,
you've got passion, but i swear that you've got me all wrong."
all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...
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